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As of today we have been married for an entire year. I am so happy with my life and I really have about 80% of that to thank on my beautiful amazing wife Amanda. AMandy you are the inspiration for me that drives me everyday to make the most of out what I have and strive for better things not only for myself but for our future together. Some people see relationships as something not so static. In fact about 40% of all marriages end in divorce. Newlyweds in America face serious problems during the first year of marriage. A study of several hundred newlywed couples found that 63 percent had serious problems related to their finances, 51 percent had serious doubts about their marriage lasting, 49 percent had significant marital problems, 45 percent were not satisfied with their sexual relationship, 41 percent found marriage harder than they had expected, and 35 percent stated their partner was often critical of them.

Comparing myself to the statistics multiply that exponentially by the mere fact that my wife waited 7 months for me in the first year of our marriage while I got my new job and our new life in order. To the most important person in the world: Amanda we will not become a statistic. If there was ever anything I was positively sure about its that you are the person I want to be for the rest of my life. In these transition times it means even more to me that you are willing to stick it out with me until the end. When things get hard we have to remind ourselves of what we were thinking in the beginning and what it means to us now. To the rest of our lives together!

Thank you for being my wife and putting up with me. You are my favorite person in the entire world.

I love you always and forever your husband!

here is a detailed list of what I want when I can afford it to keep track of what I want. This is to stop compulsory spending. Keep in mind my birthday is the 26th of July :0) ) I don’t expect anything though this is for me and someone who might be half interested.

1. The Mighty Mighty BossToneS – Let’s Face It (red)
2. The Constants – The Foundation, The Machine, The Ascension (3XLP SET ON BROWN, GRAY, AND CLEAR VINYL)
3. The Constants – The Foundation, The Machine, The Ascension 3XLP SET ON CREAM COLORED VINYL
4. AVAIL – Dixie (2XLP ON CLEAR)
5. BIG D AND THE KIDS TABLE – Fluent In Stroll” (2XLP clear/clear blue vinyl )
6. FiFTEEN – Survivor (2XLP)
7. A Storm Of Light / Nadja – Primitive North [split] – PHOSPHORESCENCE COLORED VINYL 2×12″+CD
8. THIS WILL DESTROY YOU & LYMBYC SYSTYM – Field Studies LP (clear)
9. Earth – The Bees Made Honey In The Lions Skull” (2XLP)
10. The Slackers – Better Late Than Never LP+ 7″ white vinyl

I figure I should probably just update to let people know whats going on in my life.

I am done with FTAC and I should be going out on the flightline any day now. I have been taking it WAAAY to easy with my life. I come home and I sit and do a whole lot of nothing. I blame it my readjustment period and the lack of internet in my life over the past 7 months and am catching up with the rest of the world. I am anxiously awaiting my CDC’s I want to learn as much as I can in the month or so they give me to take the test and go in there and DESTROY the thing. I have been thinking I want to attend Embry Riddle after I finish my CDC’s and I have some free time. From what it looks like now I will be on day shift 7-3 Mon-Fri.

Another thing is I need to establish another job this time for reals. I am talking about just a J-O-B job to save and spend on unimportant things. I don’t have enough disposable income and I get sort of frustrated about money pretty easy especially when I work so hard to save it. I know life is not all about working and spending and saving but I don’t feel myself advancing as quickly as I would like. I might update with more later but I figure this should suffice.

“Give me wit, give me bad taste, give me poor humor.
Give me keyboards, give me sarcasm, give me blah blah blah.
How can you criticize someone when you don’t even try for yourself.
In independent culture, we get so bored.
Type your witty comments on a little keyboard.
I can cut you down to size.
I can put you in your place.
FIRST!” – O PIONEERS!!! – “Punknews Is Stoked”

So I am finally sitting in front of my computer in my new home and I couldn’t feel better.

I of course want to start off by stating the theme of this blog entry.

I have always been a person that is concerned with others perceptions of me. I know that I got some fans out there that would like to hear nothing more that I have failed and am a real tragic social loser. And I know there are some people that thing I am sort of an inspiration and look to me to keep them motivated in their own pursuits. I don’t really set out to be hated or loved. What I have always been just a whee-bit concerned about is my station and how I rank up with others of my age group, financially, education, talents, skills etc. I know that these things don’t really mean a lot to most people, or they say they don’t. The truth is we are all constantly judged and we have every right to shape the other persons opinion about us. I am constantly self-monitoring when I meet and am talking to a new person. After I get to know someone I am a little more relaxed about letting personal things slip.

I had a sort of skeletons in the closet experience a couple days ago and I thought enough about who I am and how I have changed since I put that skeleton in the closet so many years ago. I feel I am a pretty decent person, but isn’t that everyone’s self-image? Do you think Adolf Hitler thought he was an asshole and people hated him. I try and be a nice guy and give people a chance. Haha I am pretty quick to point out when I don’t like something its mostly because I am such a strong person in regards to my own opinions….

But seriously I hate when people pretend it doesn’t matter what people think or they care too much.

You are the only one to make decisions in your life to better yourself. Don’t hate those that are trying we are all in the same boat and need the same things: Social acceptance, financial security, and to be loved.

Think about all of that because its most likely what you need. Regardless of what your life outlook is like.

“….They let up when they knew they got through They knew I’d never be the same With little left to say or do They left as quickly as they came The life was scared half out of me Some way somehow I survived A part of me was proud of me The day my skeletons arrived You’re not being honest really You’re really not and ought to be Take an honest look at yourself Try a little honesty try a little honesty.” – Mighty Mighty BossToneS

Great Scott, I am home Portland

I am so happy, we went to Mount Hood Community College for Recruiters Assistance Program. It was pretty cool, I figured a community college in Oregon would be less than willing to talk to representatives from the government (the man) but people came up and talked to us and basically told us we were a better option than the marines, army, coast-guard, navy well duh! I had some lady who thanked us for our service (it made me sort of happy and sad all at the same time) But yeah I need more rage if I am going to be standing there trying to indoctrinate you into the evil military. Where the did all the punk rockers go? I would rather talk to people who hate my guts and tell me than sneering faced self-righteous 18 year olds who say nothing.

God I missed coffee in the morning and this laptop and amazing music. I got sort of used to switching off between slacker radio stations and Pandora on my Blackberry Storm and listening to streaming music.

Did the dishes at 6am and tried to clean but got side tracked today is going to be super productive.

I thought this was funny

I am going out later with my wonderful wife buying shoes and vinyl!

Hey everyone I know that maybe some of you are getting tired of checking this site and not seeing updates. So as promised here is the big ole update on everything since the last entry over a month ago

Let’s start with the vitals

I feel great, I don’t look too good but I feel great. As soon as I get into a steadier living situation I am going to make it a habit of going to the gym and getting myself back into military shape. I feel like a fucking asshole but I refuse to buy bigger clothes.

I am going back to Portland for a week before the big move back to Arkansas. I am super excited, nervous and ready to be done with the training aspect of this job. I have been seriously considering my future over the past few days and have decided that as soon as the option is there for me I am going to be going back to school.

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    I’ve been seriously thinking about a degree in either music production or theory and history. I won’t be starting to actively pursue anything like that until I get the school I need. I know I really don’t want a degree in avionics or aircraft maintenance or whatever but I will take it just to get the class credit for the past few months. Still need to finish my computer science degree, even though I am sure I won’t be working in that career field for quite awhile, if ever. I sometimes think if I don’t just hurry up and pick something to be interested in I might just keep getting side tracked.
 

Financial

    My wife’s last day of work was today, I can’t believe how fortunate I am at this point in my life that someone feels comfortable enough with me to put their life fully in my hands. I have always prided myself on being fiscally responsible yet compulsive and trying to balance those dueling personalities. This is the real deal, oh my gawd, I’m all grown up. I bought a new phone and have been going out a bit more than I would like to. Based on the fact that this is the end of the ride as it were and I am going to be entering a more stable environment here in the next couple weeks. I am still at about the same level of comfort I was before about the money situation. I am not broke anymore but I am certainly not there yet. I got another 20 years to decide for myself whether or not my dreams of becoming the first millionaire in my family was all bullshit brought about living bigger between the ears than the reality I can make for myself by doing what I have to.

Reflection

    There has and never really will be an experience like the one I had in Tech School I entered in November 3^rd from Basic Military Training . I am set to graduate on Tuesday of next week. The last five months have taught me more about who I am and have laid to waste some misconceptions I have about the person I thought I was. The first thing I learned is that not everything comes easy for me just because I try. I have never had much problem in school but this was a whole other set of skills I didn’t realize I was lacking. This has really made me much more of a cautious learner and really more prone to try and get the advice of those who seem to learn things much quicker than myself. Thanks for the memories but I need my life back.

Music

I pre-ordered the new Gifts From Enola on both of the available colors. I cannot wait for that and the new If These Trees Could Talk (whenever that will get pressed.) I have the new Isis and am really getting sick of the initial limited pressing wars. I of course want ALL of the colors and I want the most limited but I swear to god I will not sign up for Twitter and e-stalk record labels just to get the pressing of 15 on pink or whatever the fuck. The new Isis is not that good compared to the In Absence of Truth anyways in my humble yet elitist opinion. I wish I didn’t have to compare shit, it is a solid album.

I am excited to get home and get my vinyl packed away into the special vinyl boxes I have. I am also stoked to see all the delicious music I have waiting for me back home under the care of my amazing wife who puts up with my OCD music habits.

I also wanted to say how very impressed I am with Microsoft Office 2008 for streamlining the features for blogging right from Word without ever having to go to my control panel at my site or logging in at all I am also impressed with the amount of functionality that comes with the control panel in the blog post screen. It literally takes me about 3 clicks to publish somethi

im going to full update as soon as I feel motivated. I am in Arkansas and doing very well. I want to do a comprehensive update that covers the past couple weeks. I am feeling very good and ready for anything at this point. I’m going to be riding this high all the way out of here and back to Oregon for the week ill be there.

Talk to you all very soon.

I walked two miles in the rain in a suit, my feet torn up by my father’s shoes. Receipts and cards tumble out of my pocket to the floor of the station. I still don’t have a wallet. Up a flight of stairs to Herald Square. The umbrellas of New York take up too much air. So we just walk real slow at double-arms length in unison.My mom dragged me to the doctor today, I had a cough for a month and it won’t go away ’cause I’ve been sleeping on floors for three hours a day and I have no insurance, so she has to pay. I can’t talk to my friends because I’m embarrassed that I keep sliding back down. I keep getting depressed.- We got our ideals but no way to achieve them.- We got our degree but got no means to use it.- We’re swimming in debt with no way to surmount it.- We got thirty bucks and we spend it on whiskey.- We got credit cards, so we got a new TV.- We got mobile phones but no minutes so text me.Get out of my way because I’m 25 and I still act like I’m ten! I’m 25! I don’t learn from my mistakes I make them again and again and again and again and again…- We swallow our pride over piles of problems.- We whine and complain but we don’t try to solve ‘em.- We’re reaching for answers like nobody’s got ‘em.Get out of my way because I’m 25 and I still act like I’m ten goddamn years old!

Down the street, around the corner. Over the bridge, that dirty water College campus, mighty minds and a reactor right behind Passed the candy factory, Salvation Army, Fire station through the square I hate that place up the stairs Next the doors, they never work I never let that bother me And I hope some worker’s not disgruntled I hope there’s something there for me An old man reads the paper loudly everyday now for a year Stamp machines and wanted posters here again, again I’m here!



Now it’s 737 almost everyday! 737 well I want you to say! 737 and everyday! 737 almost everyday!



Nice to know that someone hears us It’s good to know somebody’s there Taking the time to say hello Taking the time to show you care Write again and thanks again from the bottom of my heart See you soon and till then 737 is a real big part I’ve been down the last time, stretch in the finish line Shoe glue what can I do? A man’s not well dressed if his shoes are a mess Rock and Roll I’ve got a hole right in my sole Let’s rock! It’s fucking my walk and soaking my sock Who knew? It’s not stopping my step or stepping my stop We’ve got it up and we won’t let it drop Beer here, don’t wanna see clear I see no point in wrecking the joint We’re here to quench our thirst a bit But we won’t get the worst of it Turn it up more than a notch Like a punch to the face or a kick to the crotch All night never ender benefiting from a bender If nothing’s worrying you, that’s the key Cause nothing’s worrying me And nothing’s worrying me..