Mood :  pretty indifferent
Music :  The (International) Noise Conspiracy - Capitalism Stole My Virginity

“Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Addicted, afraid to take control of my own life
This is paradise “

Well here it is the time of the year I usually dread the time of year that family is the number one thing in people’s lives we have thanksgiving, Christmas the whole shabangabang. I never understood the idea but I think the older I get the more I understand needing people in that same way. I am just happy that I don’t ever have the same frame of reference for things like that. I always notice too when people find out about my lack of plans for any one of these events they offer me the dreaded orphan charity. I just want to say something real quick about that I am not a charity case I am a person who has my own set of beliefs and set of things going on upstairs. My father died mid December 13 years ago. My mother died 19 years ago It makes me mad when people assume I will spending time with my family or that these fucking days mean anything to me. Lets be fair though it is nice that people offer even in the confines of when they believe people need help.  Like how people are more likely to give homeless people money around Christmas for some unbeknown reason to me like they aren’t homeless 364 days out of the year or anything just Christmas.

Another thing I want to talk about as my room mate aptly describes as psychic vampires the sort of people that do everything in their power to hold you down and tell you, you can’t do something. It’s as simple in my mind as people saying “I can’t do what you are talking about, so neither can you.” I figure people would figure that when people tell me I can’t do something that just makes me actually do it and actually try harder.

so in my last thought I would just like to say negativity is fine if you keep it to yourself.